I kinda wish summer would last forever Lord, help me to enjoy it one day at a time! I've been feeling so anxious about the future though.. Everyone is like "what are you going to do?" and I'm all like "derrrr.. idk." I just have to pray and see.. I hate the unknown.

I had a climbing competition last Saturday. It was a blast I took 2nd in my division and 3rd over all the females. I'm so glad there are male and female divisions, by the way. haha.. The guy who won they whole thing would sleep in a corner, then get up and flash (climb without falling for the first time) a route then sleep for another half hour and do it again. lol he was really cool. He said he is 40th in the world.

I wonder about T.J's condition.. Honestly, it feels like I'm being tricked sometimes.. He is moving very stiffly. My friends say its cause he just got his hooves trimmed and is still getting used to it.. but its been 3 days.. I am sure of one thing though, I am so blessed with a special friend that knows exactly what I'm going through. Even most of my gal pals say they understand.. they truly don't.. don't get me wrong, their sympathy does not go unappreciated.

Speaking of that special friend.. Its been kinda weird because I still feel like he is totally out of my league. In every way, but lately.. looks-wise has been getting to me.. I'm tired of sitting in his car and hearing him answer his cell phone (only to quickly hang it up) to one of his many female stalkers. Attractive, but shallow girls.. I like him so much for who he is I almost wish he was uglier just so we could get some peace.. lol! But, is it normal for me to feel self-conscious like this? I don't want to go as far to say incompetent.. buttt.. haha yeah.. Hopefully I'll get over this..

Updates later when I'm bored enough to get on again